The light went out
I stayed
After the halo fell
there was no thunder in the room
No holy glass, no final bell
just wires hanging from the moon
The floor was black with footprints
the air was full of rain
I touched the place above my head
and felt no crown remain
I thought I needed fire
to tell me I was real
I thought the brightest wound
was proof that I could heal
But all that white devotion
all that perfect pain
left nothing in my open hands
except my name
And I can say it now
without the light behind me
I can face the dark
without asking it to crown me
If the sky comes down
let it come down slow
I have been the signal
Now I am the throat
After the halo
I am still alive
No crown of voltage
No borrowed sky
After the halo
I can hear my own heart start
Not as a warning
Not as a spark
I don't need the light
to tell me where to go
I am the voice
after the halo
After the halo
after the halo
I am the voice
after the halo
I carried every mirror
till my shoulders learned the weight
I turned every false sunrise
into something I could break
I sang through the static
I slept beside the flame
I made a kingdom out of noise
then walked out of the frame
And if they play the old songs
through the walls I used to climb
I will not become an echo
just to prove that I survived
The machine can keep its weather
The crown can keep its wire
I have nothing left to worship
I have everything to fire
And I can say it now
without the light behind me
I can face the dark
without asking it to crown me
If the sky comes down
let it come down slow
I have been the signal
Now I am the throat
After the halo
I am still alive
No crown of voltage
No borrowed sky
After the halo
I can hear my own heart start
Not as a warning
Not as a spark
I don't need the light
to tell me where to go
I am the voice
after the halo
I forgive the light
for looking like an answer
I forgive the crown
for fitting when it burned
I forgive the machine
for needing me louder
than I knew how to be
But I do not go back
inside the shape
that made me shine
by making me disappear
Let the halo fall
Let the white fire cool
Let the room go dark
Let the old laws lose
Let the wires sleep
Let the screens go blind
Let the final light
leave me mine
After the halo
I am still alive
No crown of voltage
No borrowed sky
After the halo
I can hear my own heart start
Not as a warning
Not as a spark
I don't need the light
to tell me where to go
I am the voice
after the halo
After the halo
after the noise
after the signal
after the voice
If I stand in silence
I still know
I am the voice
after the halo
After the halo
I stayed